Sunday, February 28, 2016

I'm sorry for being an emotional downer half the time. I'm actually a humorous, entertaining person deep down and it's frustrating that it feels like I'm almost never in situations where I can easily let that part out of myself anymore. 
Thinking I should look into very long overdue therapy sessions of some sort and feeling overwhelmed by the idea of spilling my disorganized guts out and the effect that trying to change super rigid OCD habits of mine might have. Struggling so much at having normal conversations with anyone and battling massive insecurity is just really getting to me. 

Sunday, February 7, 2016

I'm still here, trying to figure out a way to get myself out of seclusion and actually connect with people while not just being a mindless sleep deprived check scanning / song rating / TV watching drone like i've been for a good while.