Friday, September 30, 2016

More voices in my head telling me to just get Facebook for awhile and go actually talk to people more often offline, but... it's not faaaair. Initiating conversations with people is too freaking hard if they don't do it first. The battle between the heart and mind or something to that effect continues.
There aren't many advantages to the 1998-2003 or so me as compared to now, but one of them was that I could find it a lot easier to gain an audience for it among random people with my tendency to showcase my ridiculous side in AOL chat rooms and various message boards to total strangers.
I've been watching South Park again chronologically after sporadically seeing episodes from the first several seasons back in the late 90's / early 00's continuation of my Dreadful Boy era (watched today, 5-9 and 5-10: the amusingly dated post-9/11 one in Afghanistan where Stevie Nicks is apparently a goat and the one with the Wisconsin couple who have buttocks for heads) and and when my brain's turned off it's an absolute laugh riot, especially Cartman's shenanigans. When my brain's turned ON, however, the buzzkill Dan the Serious Businessman has thoughts along the lines of duuude it's totally obvious Trey and Matt quickly threw all these episodes together at the 11th hour, what Cartman did to Scott Tenorman's parents was mean, Korn in a Scooby Doo mystery parody maybe wasn't the best idea, Kenny dying every episode is unrealistic, and other things along those lines. Whatever, my brain just wants to go to Stranger Things already since that show is alphabetically next in my cycle.
"People think I wake up in a suit," Bryan Ferry of Roxy Music fame once said. Yeah it's kind of hard to listen to Flesh And Blood or Avalon and not imagine him in one the whole time.

Thursday, September 29, 2016

There's probably no way Sunday won't be a really super chaotic down to the wire final day of my fantasy baseball season for the title. The 15 games on the schedule, oddly enough, all start between 3:05 and 3:15 and I'll probably be flipping back and forth through several of them on MLB Extra Innings right after I get home from work with 5 starting pitchers going for my team. A few categories are still up for grabs (thankfully I'm only down 2 in home runs despite not having one yet at the moment and still tied in steals at 3 in particular) and for right now I'm grabbing fill in pitchers I've never heard of like Brad Peacock and who the hell else knows to try and boost up my stats.
"Forget problem solving sessions. I'm 100% convinced the missing batches of work were taken by the ghosts." -what I wanted to say during today's huddle at work.
Facebook has weird mental effects on me sometimes. It gives you the illusion that you're a lot more "connected" to people than you really are. Among family, friends and others I see frequently there are a TON of people on there I've only met once or haven't seen in years, as well as people who I've maybe seen play onstage before once but have no idea who I am and vice versa. I've gotten better at not caring too much whether I'm annoying or obnoxious on Facebook but sometimes anxiety over what the entire combined audience thinks still comes out way more than it should for me. I think i had an attack over it after posting a lot following my "high" day and it was interesting to talk about these issues in therapy.
There are many things i'd rewrite on my old music review site if I had the motivation for it, but I think my R.E.M. page has to be up there as one. Maybe if I analyzed the albums again Murmur and Reckoning could still be favorites, but Life's Rich Pageant and Automatic For The People get to me most these days. Green feels WAY too singsongey and lightweight to be one of their best like I think I put it at one point (though I still like it a lot) and I can't make up my mind how I feel about Up anymore after being obsessed with it when it came out.

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Arrgghh.. stupid rain delays costing Jerad Eickhoff and Michael Fulmer potential wins. Stupid Felix Hernandez and Julio Teheran giving up 6 runs. Stupid Jake Arrieta giving up 7 runs. But hey, despite the blowups with my pitchers the Green Ship Captains are STILL only losing 5-4 in my matchup league championship since my offense is kicking ass. And hey, the Demonland Introverts are hanging on tied for first in my points / rotisserie league! Let's see if I can make "towards moves" in my therapy progress once this fantasy baseball addiction passes. 

Monday, September 26, 2016

I was all set to comment on how Rate Your Music's top 3 of doom for 2016 is David Bowie's Blackstar (which is inspired by his own impending death two days after its' release of course), Radiohead's A Moon Shaped Pool (this time their variation on depression is about Thom Yorke's breakup) and Nick Cave's Skeleton Tree (the first album after the death of his son which I just got today), but now I see the #2 is an experimental hip hop album and #4 is a technical thrash metal album. Never change, you silly RYM kids. :P
Gotta go back to The Fire open mic, where I've been wanting to do more cover songs just for fun / practice. I realized I've been involved in some pretty weird, random ones in the past - "Get In The Ring" by Guns N' Roses (really!), "Suburban Homeboy" by Sparks, "The Body Electric" by Rush, "Summer '68" by Pink Floyd, "We Walk" by R.E.M., "People Take Pictures Of Each Other" by The Kinks, "I'm Sad My Goat Just Died Today" by The Frogs, "Loose Translation" by New Pornographers, "Clown" by Status Quo.... anything else I should learn?
My second best day of the Edirol era might have been in I think October 2009 when I sang the 84 song Endless Setlist in Rock Band 2 for 6 hours straight without pausing or failing or getting up for a drink. I think I 5 starred all but 2 or 3 of those songs on vocals, most notably "Lump" by the Presidents Of The USA. It was a great setlist but the most fun was easily "Tangled Up In Blue". I really think if you got more Dylan songs in those Rock Band games his fan base would skyrocket and convert some who understandably hate him. Too bad nobody plays those games anymore. Do they? I stopped shortly after RB3 came out because it was too much of an unproductive addiction.
My car ride home last night was really surreal. I felt like a ghost was driving along with me and doing most of the effort accelerating, then I almost felt like I wasn't in control of my own body. Maybe it was the "probably shouldn't have happened but hey, I needed energy Paxil and Mountain Dew to help watch over Oliver" combo. To add to the surrealist vibe, I watched a seriously wacky Bojack Horseman episode centering around his drug addled former sitcom child co-star right afterwards. Anthropomorphic animals co-existing with humans animated humor, yay. And I realized I might have reached the fantasy baseball championship last night partly thanks to the fact Jose Fernandez (seriously RIP) got killed and thus Braves pitcher Julio Teheran never had a chance to possibly sabotage my team ERA since the Braves / Marlins game was cancelled. I feel like I should dedicate the championship to his ghost if I win it.
I think my day yesterday may have been in the 4.50's or 4.60's (out of 5), possibly the highest it's been in the 2008-2016 Edirol recorder / spy machine era. I'm still 100% adamant about never ever raising a kid with my hypothetical future M-named wife because of all my crazy sensitive anxieties, intense Asperger's behavior and overall backwardsness getting in the way but holy crap my 2.5 year old nephew Oliver is too much fun. I guess the Eagles win helped too.
I say there should be a 2052 Kids Revisionist History Edition of King Crimson's classic debut In The Court Of The Crimson King. Leave side 1 as is, but replace the last 8 or 9 minutes of"Moonchild" with a spliced together edit of "Cat Food" and "The Devil's Triangle" from the following In The Wake Of Poseidon. "The Court Of The Crimson King" would sound so awesome coming out of "The Devil's Triangle's" scary "Mars" atmosphere and the album's in need of one more energetic blast like "Cat Food". Evil Steven Wilson remix?

Sunday, September 11, 2016

I know, fantasy baseball is basically Dungeons and Dragons for jocks, but damn it, I'm good at it. :) In my matchup league as Green Ship Captains I've won 15 weeks in a row and made getting the top seed and first round bye a foregone conclusion awhile ago. It'll be heavily disappointing if I don't win it all. 

Friday, September 9, 2016

Thinking more about "villain" characters I developed more while improvising onstage during the Grape Room open jam on Wednesday. Specifically Gary Demon's assistants Elijah Greenstone (a meek IT guy / computer programmer type) and a new one, the ironically named Joy, who I don't have a last name for and does obnoxious things like mocking the purchases of Demonland Records customers and leaving people hanging right in the middle of interesting conversations to go talk to others. Brainstorming... 
After revisiting Rush's Hold Your Fire I have pro tips for those people who continue to insist on sounding like the 80's: don't sound like "Second Nature" and "Lock And Key" and Google image search "geddy lee 1987" for a guide on how not to look. That said, even though it's way too far into AOR territory and makes me feel more uneasy than it used to, I'd still play the hell out of it if it came out as downloadable content on Rock Band. 
Time to revisit the Flaming Lips catalog, or what I have of it at least, which may include the 6 hour song "I Found A Star On The Ground". I still can't believe I listened to that thing at work a few years ago straight through without getting interrupted once. That could never happen now with our daily huddles. Still not brave enough to take on the 24 hour song "7 Skies H3" beyond that 48 minute excerpt I have on CD, but who knows. If the story Be A Perfect Person In Just 3 Days existed in 2012, one of the tasks for perfection should have been to listen to both songs in darkness while doing nothing else. 

Monday, September 5, 2016

Another silly dream on Paxil: I was in some study hall where we could do whatever we want, and I brought in a couple Modern Family episodes to watch. It's a show that's rarely super GREAT, but pretty much always reliably at least good or very good, and the striving super hard to be cool real estate agent dad Phil Dunphy is never not entertaining. I guess in this alternate universe, though, one of the episodes I decided to watch in front of people was this extremely boring "experimental" thing with a bunch of dialogue that went nowhere and included pointless animated characters in it as well. After a couple people around me complained about how terrible it was, one of which may have been a message board poster I've never met in person, I looked up the episode rating on IMDb and it got a 2.9 out of 10 - I apparently didn't know that rating in advance but my OCD self in real life most definitely would. The next episode in this fantasy season conveniently scored a 9.4. Talk about inconsistency!